Report From the Trenches

Report From the Trenches

Edited by Fred Pruitt

(Various responses to Voice in the Wilderness Blog posts by my Australian friend, Dennis. They go back several years. These are just a few. No one who writes me is more honest than Dennis about their personal lives. Day by day by day, through everything adverse that seems to pound him almost without letup, he continues to find the Spirit’s upholding.)

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From me:

You’re the real deal, Dennis! You are Christ in the trenches, not in ivory towers! You have life, and have it more abundantly — not the easy life of pleasure but the hard life of being sheep for the slaughter that God might bring Life through the Deaths you experience! You can’t help yourself, it’s YOU! Blessings, brother!

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From Dennis:

You got me Fred—I have this lump on the back of my right arm that has suddenly appeared from nothing about 10 days ago to almost half inch in diameter and about a quarter inch high. It hurts to touch and is red and inflamed around the edges.(I think its squamous cell carcinoma) I have been working long hours and not much sleep since my heart valve operation in 2016. Went to the local doctors practice but they were so busy and the wait so long, I went back to work. That was last Thursday. It has grown since then by a third!! I booked an appointment for the Doc then on Feb 4th. By then it will be about an inch across the way it is growing! It’s really freaking my outer man out Fred, yet His presence is tangible. I have put turmeric on it, taken turmeric pills, and other remedies but it is like feeding a monster, it keeps growing. The temptation as usual is to think I have been a disobedient puppy and God is punishing me. That kind a temptation is a common one for me. Working long hours, no savings, no house, old bomb of a car, etc etc, all punishment from God….blah blah. But what can “I” do? NOTHING!! Except believe, and speak and sing of His unfailing love. I cannot provide for myself financially. I cannot heal myself. I cannot maintain my health. I cannot do anything. I fall upon the Rock Who is Christ living as me.

“You see, temptation isn’t a bad thing when you know what it is for and WHO is going to uphold you. (“Behold my servant, Whom I uphold.” Isaiah 42:1) We’re afraid of temptation until we understand its purpose as well as come to consciousness about Who we are. Temptation scares us if we don’t KNOW the Lord will bring us all the way through. So God gives us some exercises in that to inform us to not worry, He’s got us, and He will bring us through. And God Who is love does it time and time again, eventually getting through the thick foreskin covering our spiritual ears, and we finally realize the great blessing of being tried, and through Christ by the Spirit, we overcome!” –I

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laughing and crying at the same time. You read my mail Fred. I once was …no forget that …just had an inspired song come to mind…by a band many said were of the Devil….but here is a song with God’s fingerprint on it.

Help! I need somebody
Help! Not just anybody
Help! You know I need someone
Help!

(When) When I was younger (When I was young) so much younger than today
(I never need) I never needed anybody’s help in any way
(Now) But now these days are gone (These days are gone) and I’m not so self assured
(And now I find) Now I find I’ve changed my mind, I’ve opened up the doors

Help me if you can, I’m feeling down
And I do appreciate you being ’round
Help me get my feet back on the ground
Won’t you please, please help me?

(Now) And now my life has changed (My life has changed) in oh so many ways
(My independence) My independence seems to vanish in the haze
(But) But ev’ry now (Every now and then) and then I feel so insecure
(I know that I) I know that I just need you like I’ve never done before

Help me if you can, I’m feeling down
And I do appreciate you being ’round
Help me get my feet back on the ground
Won’t you please, please help me?

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Mar 4:39 Then He arose and rebuked the wind, and said to the sea, “Peace, be still!” And the wind ceased and there was a great calm.
I have had a terrible couple of days in Him…it seemed that I was certainly the only one living in this body. Feelings were overwhelming me. In the end I made the decision through gritted teeth to declare the truth that I am constantly one with Him, that He has my flesh, fills it with Himself even! I shouted in the car that nothing has changed between You and I. We are one. He is just as much with me on my bad days as my good days!! Darn emotions! I AM! thanks Fred, you’re a blessed warrior! You are like David sent to the front lines with a basket full of goodies to stregthen the hands that hang down…and the feeble knees. Hallelujah. I will never leave you nor forsake you, no never! Heb 13:5

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I realised today that I have always been suspicious of myself…and for a long long time now, I have been offended at myself. Scandalised by my failures and sins…so I have rejected myself, walking in self pity and hopelessness. Talk about a double minded man! Saw it so clearly today and gladly repented. Been hood winked into wanting the Old Man(who is dead!) to serve God in the perfection of holiness. As a result of being offended with my self, I am always so easily offended with others, suspicious of them, not tolerating their sins and weaknesses. Judging myself as a sinner, causes me to see everyone else as one. Suspicious of my own motives, so, suspecting others motives. Today all that has ceased. I accept once and for all that I am full of all goodness.

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Wonderful Fred. This sovereignty thing is cleared up a lot when we stop seeing ourselves as separate from God. We are really literally God’s body. We are literally God’s Spirit. We are literally God’s soul…even though we are our own selves. Yet in God being sovereign and accomplishing all His purpose through us and with us He NEVER pushes anyone around. I like the Jungle book cartoon movie from years ago. The 4 Liverpool sounding vultures sit on a branch asking one another…”What do you want to do? I dunno, what do you want to do?” and it goes around and around with none of them deciding to do anything. I have lived for so long like them, afraid to decide because I did not want to go outside God’s will for my life. It troubled me greatly when I read Oswald Chambers saying that ‘my free choices were God’s will’. Are You sovereign Lord…or am I?! Now I am at rest IN Him…as He has been at rest IN me…He has been carrying me and sustaining me and moving me along in life since I was conceived. Always caring for me, always lining up blessing for me, always covering and protecting me…or exposing me to different stimuli that I needed to go the next step. I am so glad to be His…as He is so glad to live in me.

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From me:

I don’t think I need to add anything to what Dennis has shared. Like I said, he’s the “real deal!”

 

God’s blessings everyone!

6 thoughts on “Report From the Trenches

  1. you’re welcome I am so relieved that being a mess is okay with Father! I remember first writing to Fred about all the mess I am…and being shocked and baffled, but really comforted by his response. He said I am right where I am supposed to be…I am in a good place…etc. Always grateful to God for you Fred.

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