Whom I Uphold – Says the Lord
Behold my servant, whom I uphold; mine elect, in whom my soul delighteth; I have put my spirit upon him …” (Isaiah 42:1)
By Fred Pruitt
(I posted the note and Scripture passage immediately below on Facebook a few days ago. That prompted a friend to comment about these things and how much they had affected him immediately in a very deep way. He sort of had what I might call an effluence of the Spirit, in which his “spiritual brain” is taken out and washed clean of all its impurities by the Spirit, Who then begins to add back in the midst of inner fireworks and lightnings and thunderings, the solid form of His revelation of Christ in Himself. From there we had a most wonderful exchange, that I wanted to share part of it.)
This is the note I posted on Facebook with the Scripture passage below it.
The passage below saved my life 38 years ago. Knowing the truth of it is beyond all treasures the world can offer, now and forever. He is NOT the God of fear, and anyone who comes to Him will find ultimate comfort and shelter from all storms that blow — and they will continue to blow — but we are safely held in the unfailing love of the Living God and the Son, the Lord Jesus Christ.
21 Thus my heart was grieved, and I was pricked in my reins.
22 So foolish was I, and ignorant: I was as a beast before thee
23 Nevertheless I am continually with thee: thou hast holden me by my right hand.
24 Thou shalt guide me with thy counsel, and afterward receive me to glory.
25 Whom have I in heaven but thee? and there is none upon earth that I desire beside thee.
26 My flesh and my heart faileth: but God is the strength of my heart, and my portion for ever.
28 But it is good for me to draw near to God: I have put my trust in the Lord GOD, that I may declare all thy works.
COMMENT: God had used this Psalm in my life in powerful ways as well Fred
Actually, Fred, thanks for sharing this now….. It is truly God speaking to me and assuring my heart at a painful time….
Fred Pruitt I won’t elaborate at the moment, but it was such a time for me, too! In a time of overwhelming darkness (as a believer) I could only read Psalms, everything else brought condemnation, that in a moment when I read that passage the clouds of darkness parted and the sun shone bright and clear and free, and I knew from that moment on HE HAD ME, not I “having Him.” It was the moment after 7 years as a believer “believing” it was all on my shoulders, that I realized I was on HIS shoulders and He would not leave me in the desert to die. Ok, I said I wouldn’t elaborate so I’ll stop now. Great to hear from you!
COMMENT: Oh, Fred, you don’t know what your words have meant to me… it is like cool, refreshing water in a parched desert. Thank you, thank you, thank you, dear brother! Words fail me to describe what God has just done through this….
Fred Pruitt It’s just the love of God through the Spirit moving as He wills. During that time I spoke of, I was working at an equipment rental yard. We had just resigned from a “ministry” we had been a part of for those 7 years. I don’t want to dredge up old difficulties that God used to take us to our next place in Him. Nor to assign any sort of “blame” to others who were doing just what we were doing — wanting to be and trying to be the “best we could be in Christ Jesus.” It was plain to us from the Spirit in early 1973, that we were to go there and join with them. Now seven years later, our time was over there and it was time to move on to the Lord’s next thing — meaning leaving California and heading back to Georgia and our families we had seen little of in those years.
Still, in order to understand “why” such an oppression came over me as I have described many times, remembering some things said and done in those years put it into the context in which I could understand it and share it with others. Some things had been emphasized over and over, one of them being, “Don’t be a John Mark.” Don’t be the fellow who left Paul and Barnabus in the middle of their first journey and headed back home. In that context “leaving” pointed to the possibly that you were forsaking God and being “out of His will,” “backsliding,” and according to the theology at the time, perhaps even no longer saved, but already in outer darkness. Have I committed the ”unpardonable sin?” I never really knew REAL fear until that false mind overwhelmed me and I could ponder such things.
Now I didn’t walk around with all that in my mind as we were living our daily stuff. Most of that was kept in a mental closet I didn’t want to open up too much. But after we turned in our resignations to the group, , even though I didn’t really believe those things, still an unbelievably overpowering oppression came over me and inner voices accusing me of all those things. It was pure darkness; it was relentless and it lasted many weeks. IT WAS SHEER ABJECT TERROR!!!
But in the middle of that time, I was walking across the yard to get some equipment and that loving gentle voice I “knew” said inside me, “This that you are experiencing now is for all the others.”
Then I forgot that Word for nearly 25 years, until I was sharing with some about this and the Spirit brought that back to my consciousness, and I almost wept, because I saw and understood for the first time why all that, which was pure misery at the time, had happened, because I was seeing the “fruit” the Spirit promised with my very eyes. I had been sharing the union message for years by then and I knew that negative was the beginning of the seed cast into the ground, that was now sprouting all around me. God keeps His promises, His “general ones” of course, and more specifically, the ones He has made personally to us. Thank you for sharing brother! This has PURPOSE — “to save much people alive.” (Gen 50:20).
COMMENT: Thanks for opening up, Fred, and sharing that. It means a lot. Count me in on that “fruit”! The part that you said earlier that really came with a much deeper Holy Spirit revelation was:
‘And I knew from that moment on HE HAD ME, not I “having Him.” It was the moment after 7 years as a believer “believing” it was all on my shoulders, that I realized I was on HIS shoulders and He would not leave me in the desert to die’
This reminds me of what the Lord did for Hudson Taylor, that faithful missionary to China, and what he called “the exchanged life”. I’m going through another chapter of pain in a process of very difficult situation. Meantime, work has been overwhelming. There are so FEW voices like yours, who have received a greater glimpse of our union with Christ (actually His union with us!). In this desert (even among Christians) of the fellowship of those in “union life” it is hard…. God is faithful. As you said, “HE HAS ME, not ‘I having Him'”… can’t explain how the Spirit has brought in a flash of Divine light a much greater revelation of this! It surely is a RESTING PLACE….
Fred Pruitt Amen brother!