The Mysterious Will of God

By Fred Pruitt

And the multitude sat about him, and they said unto him, Behold, thy mother and thy brethren without seek for thee. And he answered them, saying, Who is my mother, or my brethren? And he looked round about on them which sat about him, and said, Behold my mother and my brethren! For whosoever shall do the will of God, the same is my brother, and my sister, and mother.” (Mark 3:32-35)

God works in mysterious ways.” How many times have we heard this, or said it ourselves? I suppose the reason it is repeated so much, is that it is true! It’s just downright baffling sometimes, the way things go! Why? How did that happen? Why did they do that? To what end?

But at the same time, if we are a little bit settled in God and Who He is, we somehow see past our understanding (of the moment), and fall headlong into a depth of trust, enhanced by experience, that the Father IS bringing Life out of whatever it is in the moment that is stirring the pot.

When I just typed the paragraph above, I did not have Prov 3:5,6 (“Lean not unto thine own understanding, trust in the Lord with all thine heart, in all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths”) in mind, but after reading what I wrote, I realized that was exactly what I was saying. And at the same time, I realized how long it has been with me to live that way – since we broke down at Barstow in the Mojave Desert in California, headed home to Georgia for Christmas, 1977.

Too long a story, but the short version is this: Janis and our three, then 4 (John), 2 (Andrew), and <1 (Jessica), and I, were headed home by car for Christmas from Monterey, California to Rome, Georgia, roughly 2,500 miles. The first night we stayed in Bakersfield CA, since with the three little ones and what I have come now to discover is a life-long late-leaving for any out-of-town driving trip, we didn’t get out of Monterey until about 2 PM, long after the scheduled 6 AM departure time.

We pulled into Bakersfield well after dark after surprisingly encountering blizzard-like snow showers and strong winds while riding through a high mountain pass. Thoroughly exhausted, we got a room at the first cheap motel we saw. We were on a limited budget, enough to get to Georgia where we were promised funds for the return trip, so we had to watch our pennies. We found one, apparently a favorite of truckers, because lots of rigs were parked in the lot. (Being “in the ministry,” at an assistant level at the time, we were paid a salary of $150/week, not much even in 1977! As my pastor lamented, congregations often operated under the adage, “You keep him humble, Lord, and we’ll keep him poor!”)

In the middle of the night I awoke to sirens, lights and commotion outside the motel room. I looked out the window and the whole of the outside looked like it was glowing orange; wind was blowing fiercely – I could hear it– and I saw lots of flashing emergency vehicle lights, all going this way and that way in a big hurry. At first I thought maybe the motel was on fire, but when I realized it was not on fire and I that couldn’t know anything else, I went back to bed. I didn’t think what was going on, “affected” us.

When we woke in the morning around first light, (and 3 kids under 5 years always make sure you see that time of day) we were greeted with a phenomenon and landscape we could not believe. There was sand in the room! (131 miles to the ocean!) It had seeped in through the windows. When we looked outside, it looked like it had snowed several inches of sand. Trees were bent double with the wind blowing hard sideways, the air was still orange, and so was everything else, including our car. We had a little 1968 Volkswagen Squareback then, given to us by some good friends, and it was loaded to the gills with kids’ clothes, baby/toddler things, our traveling clothes, ALL our Christmas presents for us and our relatives, and Janis’ guitar.

Alright, common sense might tell someone, “Hey, don’t try to leave just yet.” But, what’s being young all about, if you can’t also be naïve and learn by experience? We had grown up in Georgia, and we never had any dust storms there. We got remnants of hurricanes sometimes, due to our proximity to the Gulf and the Atlantic, and tornadoes, we got those, too, but no dust storms. So we were dust-storm neophytes, and did not think it a great thing to scrape all the sand off everything there was, pack the car and head on down the road to Georgia. We had left on Monday, December 19th, had lost a lot of time with our lateness and not pressing on farther, now it was Tuesday, and we “HAD” to get going! So said Dad (me)!

So off we go. We had to drive CA Highway 58 from Bakersfield to Barstow, to get to Interstate-40, which would take us all the way back east. At first everything was normal, if lots of orange sand blowing around is normal. We were not impeded, and visibility was pretty good, at first, so we kept going. “Gotta get to Georgia, gotta get to Georgia!” We all know how it is when we are destination-minded, and sometimes we have to be!

We did not get very far. As soon as we left the outskirts of Bakersfield, conditions grew worse and worse. We were troopers always, and quitters no-way!, so on we pressed. Visibility mile-by-mile waned, from vague to more vague to nearly non-existent. Blowing sand and wind began to buffet the car, and it was as thick as any fog I’ve ever been in, and I’ve been in quite a few where I had to open the car door and feel the ground below me, to assure myself I was still on the pavement.

I said to Janis, “Hey, I think we ought to pray about this!!!” Or maybe she said it to me, I don’t remember, but we decided to have an earnest word about it right there in the moment! We were still driving, though we couldn’t see hardly 5 feet ahead, and so we prayed, “Lord, let us know if we should not go on.” (The Lord was probably thinking, “Geez, how dumb can they be?”) But He DID answer! (All grace always!)

I am not saying this for dramatic effect, but just saying what happened in the moment, because it happened exactly as I am telling it. As soon as the “amens” were out of our mouths, still cruising maybe 25-30 mph, afraid someone might be stopped ahead of me, it seemed like the very moment we said, “Amen,” that a giant load of sand and dirt – like a WHOLE load coming out all at once from the back of a dump truck – fell onto our car in a giant “WHUUMP!”

We were immediately stopped dead in our tracks, the engine shutting off of itself, just going dead, stopped almost instantaneously by a mountain of dirt and sand. The children all started crying and we didn’t know what was going on. (I was pretty awed, though, because I had not ever had such a quick, decisive, or “impressive” answer to prayer before!)

After a bit, it cleared enough to see we weren’t buried, but only coated with sand. Still, we didn’t have any visibility. At that point the main thing I was worried about was being hit from behind, so I got out and pushed the car off to the side. For a while there was no further visibility and we could not see anything around us.

After about 10 or 15 minutes it cleared enough for us to see our surroundings. The first thing we saw, to our joy, was that we were near an exit where we could turn around and go back to Bakersfield. Then we saw that there were many of us, up and down the road, who had been stopped in our tracks and covered in sand, including a state trooper a little ways from us who had been in the blindness as much as we had been.

When I first tried to start the car, it would not catch. The battery and the starter were working ok, but I could tell it wasn’t getting enough fuel to fire. (I know enough about cars to botch any repair effort.) It’s always a balance between enough cranks to make it start, and the number of minutes the battery will support the effort. I kept trying, gingerly, didn’t want to exhaust the battery, and finally the spark fired and the engine started! Heartily praising and thanking, we turned around, made it back to Bakersfield, found a restaurant that was without power, sat there long enough for the power to come back on so we could have coffee and eat; ate; and then felt very lucky to get back into the same motel again, since they’d closed the roads and nobody could leave. Night 2 in Bakersfield. It is now December 20.

Now I have a confession to make, that might be especially meaningful to the Bakersfield area residents of that time. At the time, I took the blame, wholly on myself, for the storm that knocked out a whole section of southern California. “It was me, folks, I did it!” I’m saying that facetiously now, but sadly, such was the state of my spiritual understanding at the time. I had been “advised,” by a “minister above me,” that going to Georgia at that time, might not be the wisest thing to do, but I was free to do it if I wanted. Well, here we are, 2 days into our trip and not out of California yet, this big storm has come up, and, remembering Jonah, I went into the motel bathroom after all my crew had gone to sleep and repented to the Lord that I had made the “unwise” decision to take the trip to Georgia, which, I feared, had caused the Lord to send the Dust-storm Hurricane, doing great destruction, including loss of life, to that part of California, because of me. I was very much in earnest! (I have a better view of God, and myself, now.)

But, somehow I got peace on that in my bathroom chapel that night. Once the trip was on, we had to see it through!

So day 3, now Wednesday, we wait until 1:00 PM, until the CHP says the roads are safe, before we can leave. We were rested and well-fed, at last, finally heading on our trip! We were very exhilarated to be hitting the road! However, when we went beyond the place we had been stopped the day before, we could not believe what we saw. For a stretch of highway, a little past where we had stopped, it looked like a bombed-out battlefield! There were cars and trucks all over the sides and in the median. Some had their windows blown out and were filled with sand. There were long-haul trucks on their sides, and even a train on its side! It looked like a war had happened. We were very sobered, seeing what we had missed the day before by only a mile or so. (The only time since then, that I have seen anything to compare in some way to what we saw, was the destruction our Air Force heaped onto the Iraqi forces in 1991, as they were retreating from Kuwait. It looked like that! [on a much smaller scale]) We drove on for a time, feeling nothing but thanksgiving as we passed out of that area, headed into the desert.

The desert has a real beauty, I’ll give you that. And as we drove through the late afternoon, in dark December, something began rolling in me in my heart and mind. On one hand nothing in nature can compare with the immediacy of the sky, and especially the night sky, in the desert. That was my first love in the West – the sky! In the US there is really no comparison in the East. We just have too much in the way, mountains included. But in the West – certain parts anyway – there’s that incredible in-your-face right-at-your-fingertips SKY! In the East I feel like we look at the stars. In the West I feel like we are in the stars!

When I consider thy heavens, the work of thy fingers, the moon and the stars, which thou hast ordained; What is man, that thou art mindful of him? and the son of man, that thou visitest him?” (Ps 8: 3,4).

The heavens declare the glory of God; and the firmament showeth his handiwork. Day unto day uttereth speech, and night unto night showeth knowledge. There is no speech nor language, where their voice is not heard. Their line is gone out through all the earth, and their words to the end of the world.” (Ps 19: 1-4).

We drove down the highway into the dusk, diapers changing, snacks eating, luggage-rack rattling, attempts at entertainment and appeasement, threats of grievous bodily harm, sudden delights of beauty – the Christian American Dream, really, truly, actually, going “over the river and through the woods to Grandmother’s house we” went. Two thousand one hundred and sixty-two miles to go.

And as the afternoon waned further and further into dusk, at the same time as all that above was going on, an inner repetition began to go on in me, of Prov 3: 5,6. Now, I’ll have to say, I didn’t “work this one up.” It just came and started repeating itself over and over, inside me. I don’t know why, except for my general frame of mind then, which often was fearful. I had plenty to be fearful about on the trip already. Worry 1 was the schedule. We should’ve been at least halfway across the country by then but were still in California. Which caused Worry 2 – we had already spent more than half our money and it was running out like water out of a holey bucket. Then there was Worry 3, unrelated to 1 and 2, in remembering the mechanic who told me the car would “probably” make it cross country and back, after he had worked on it and found “marginal” issues with the rods in the engine. There was no way we could fix the car AND go to Georgia, so I put that “probably” in the back of my mind, in the “not an option” category, and the budget had already been far exceeded.

I began saying in my mind, over and over and over, Proverbs 3:5,6, quoted above.

But I’ll write it again, for the third time in this article.

Lean not unto thine own understanding.” Understanding, enlightenment, wisdom, all are things greatly to be desired in the Lord. But we do not live from our understanding. In other words, even though we may have deep understanding of the ways of God, we may have walked in the Lord for a long time, still no matter how far our understanding goes or how clear it is to us, it is not where we put our trust. God is ALWAYS beyond it!

Trust in the LORD with all thine heart.” These verses are really the key to all living, with this phrase being preeminent. With “all thine heart” means there is no reserve of “trust” left for anything else other than God! It means, ultimately, that we, as far as trust and reliance are concerned, leave everything perceptible and sensible (able to be perceived by the senses, physically or psychologically), all things solid and visible, all things with substance we can see, hear, feel, smell, and finally even the last vestige of our own sense of self, all the “somethingness” we have known all our lives and have always relied on nothing but, and trade it for a new reliance on – “nothing.” It is not really “nothing,” but, as far as this world is concerned and any perceptibility in it, God is “No-thing.” The “Invisible,” as my friend Burt Rosenberg likes to call it, and the “Invisible,” says Burt, “is a hard sell!”

In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths.” Though I did not yet see it when the Spirit was pressing me in this passage, thinking then that these were things I “had” to do, like steps to take or something, but even in my dim consciousness at the time, I somewhat saw the universal quality in this, that this was a major key. Back then my “goal” was to acknowledge Him in all my ways, one by one, as we got to them, or when I could think of them. But I have since learned this is exactly the “oneness” we share, the union life we live, in these so-called “old testament” concepts. How many other “ways” can there be in me to acknowledge Him, when we recognize only Him as the Life of our lives, our heart of hearts, the Love within us, the unction of the Life we walk naturally every day? In other words, when we are one with the Father even as Jesus was one with the Father – “I and my Father are one” – acknowledging Him in all our ways and His sure direction of our path is the Life we ARE living, rather than one we are striving to live.

Now all that was not going on in my mind that evening as we were putt-putt-ing across the beginnings of the desert. The scripture passage was on my mind, however, and I was inwardly repeating it over and over as we drove down the highway. I did not know the Spirit was preparing us for what was coming next, and I certainly did not know I was in for a “Life” lesson. I never know stuff like that. We just wanted to be home for Christmas!

Around 7 PM it had gotten to be full darkness, and we had not eaten since we had left Bakersfield, 6 hours before. We were approaching Barstow, sort of the last stop before a long stretch in which, in those days, there was virtually nothing, and debated a little bit whether we should go ahead and stop for supper, etc. We decided we’d better, since there might not be much ahead. I pulled onto the exit ramp at Barstow, applied my brakes and finally went to neutral, pushing the clutch in as I stopped, and that is when I heard it. KLOP-KLOP, KLOP-KLOP. Instantly I KNEW what it was, those “marginal” rods in the engine. It was an unmistakable hard metallic sound, banging in the inside of the engine; if you’ve ever heard it, you know, and I knew.

But, not wanting to worry anyone else, being the typical “dad,” I told Janis that “knocking” might be a problem, but let’s go eat and let the car rest and cool for a while, and maybe it will be better. Always try solution 1 first – ignore it and maybe it will go away. So off to McDonald’s and double cheeseburger heaven, fries and drinks. I think to myself while we eat, “maybe it will be ok, maybe it will be ok. Please, Lord, make it be ok, Please, Lord, make it be ok!”

With everyone back in the car (which was always a production just in itself), I turned the key, fingers crossed, wishing, hoping, and praying, and then – KLOP-KLOP, KLOP-KLOP!

#@*igj9cf4yu)em!!$(gj!!!!”

Ok, that said, there was that sound again, no mistaking it! O so sadly I related how we were going to have to get a room for another night, since I was afraid to drive the car until we had it looked at, though, thankfully, it would still drive around town. We found a motel close by, a little above budget (but at that point, EVERYTHING was above budget!), and moved into our 3rd night of stay on the road, in California. We HAD made progress, because now we had a shorter trip left to Rome – only two thousand thirty-two miles to go!

Barstow was not a big place back then, but they did have a full-service Volkswagen dealership and service center, so I had it there the next morning, the first one in line when they opened. Luckily it was walking distance from our motel. They said they would check it out and call us. So we went back to the motel. By that time we realized we were going to have to stay for at least another night, so we elected to move to a much cheaper motel down the street, and waited to get the call.

Finally mid-afternoon the mechanic called. They had to partially take the engine apart to be sure, but yes, as we feared, we had a broken rod, and the only way to repair that was to overhaul that part of the engine. That was definitely not on the budget! In fact, it was several hundred dollars higher than it would have been to fix it before it broke, back in Monterey! (Nothing makes you wince anymore than realizing such a “self-inflicted” mistake – though I probably would not have done differently anyway.) They wanted $750 to overhaul the engine, a great deal of money in 1977, and we already owed them for taking it apart even if they didn’t do anything else!

The funds to make the trip had come from my mother and from Janis’ parents. My mother had sent the money to get us to Georgia, and Janis’ folks were helping us get back to California. We certainly didn’t have that money, and I figured she didn’t either, so we didn’t know what would happen. I called her and sure enough, as I thought, she said there was no way she could help with that, and the same with Janis’ folks. Our trip looked like it had hit the dust, literally.* We all went to sleep that night, feeling really really sad and really really dejected. (*That turned out to be more true than we first knew. It was the dust and sand going through the carburetor down into the engine that turned “marginal” into “broken.”)

And now we’re staying another night, Thursday, December 22, still two-thousand thirty-two miles to go. 130 miles closer to Rome. (At 130 miles per day, it would take about 16 days to drive to Georgia.)

The next day, Friday, December 23rd, we had to come to a decision about what to do. We could not repair the car. The way to Georgia seemed completely blocked, and we were running out of money. We decided, unless something else came up, the only thing we could do was to buy us all tickets on the Greyhound Bus, back to Monterey. We still had enough money to do that, at least! We could get ourselves back home, car-less, but at least in one piece. Making another long-distance call to my mother, reverse-charged of course (no phone cards, ATMs, wireless phones, computers, wifi, nothing whatsoever resembling any of that existed in that day), I explained our situation and told her that was what we were probably going to do, since we had no other option. We were all very very sad, but we were resigned to it, and decided to stay one more night in Barstow, and leave the next day, Saturday the 24th.

I really did not expect a rescue. Andrew had contracted some virus and he was vomiting. The kids were cramped and bored and bouncing off the walls of our little motel room.

But then, in the late afternoon, my mother called our motel room again. An anonymous benefactor, a friend of my mother, had bought the whole family airline tickets, leaving the next morning from Las Vegas, nonstop to Atlanta. The next morning was the 24th, Christmas Eve. It was an absolute miracle that they had gotten the tickets for December 24th! We were joyous and elated, hearing that news! Like Steve Winwood said, we were “back in the high life again.”

We did have some obstacles yet, however. We had gotten only what we needed for the motel stay out of the car. 75% of our stuff, including Janis’ guitar, all the Christmas presents and most of our winter stuff which we would need in Georgia, was still in the back of the VW parked in the shop. The other obstacle, was getting ourselves to Las Vegas from Barstow by 7 AM or so. I think our flight left around 8-something.

To solve the first problem, all our stuff still in the VW locked inside the lot, I tried to figure out a way to contact someone who could help us out, since by then it was after hours. We could not wait until the next day for two reasons. One, our reservations were miraculously received in the first place, and two, we had booked us all on the Greyhound that was departing Barstow around 2:30 AM, getting into Las Vegas around 5:30.

I walked all over the place trying to contact someone who could let me get more of our stuff from the car. I tried calling the “IN CASE OF EMERGENCY CALL” number, but I couldn’t get through. I stopped in at the police station, told them my situation, and asked if they knew how to get in touch with anyone there. One of them said he thought the owner lived in another town. They were no help, either. I finally had to give up. We would have to figure out how to get our stuff later.

Back to the motel, we packed up what we had and got some rest. Around 1 AM, any passing motorist would have seen quite a sight walking down that main road. We had all our stuff (such as we had), and the three, two being carried and one walking. Andrew was still nauseated and a little feverish. It was several blocks down to the Greyhound Station, but we made it, boarded the bus, rode the 3 hours to Las Vegas, arriving around 5 AM. Next, we all piled into a taxi (an expensive necessity!), which took us to the airport.

No security checkpoint in those days, so we found where our departure gate was, and of course it was way down at the bitter end of a concourse. We arrived in a huff, and I had been enduring a growing need to relieve myself, which I did after we set our bags down. As I was hurriedly moving toward the bathroom, I happened to notice that the gate attendant was taking down the sign that said, “Atlanta.” Hmm, I thought, then forgot about it for my more pressing business.

When I came back out of the bathroom and got back to Janis and the kids, Janis was crying. “What’s wrong?” I asked. “They’ve canceled the flight to Atlanta! Mechanical difficulties!” The gate attendant told us they would reroute us, but we had to go back to the ticketing area at the front. So we grabbed everything again, only this time we were in a big hurry to make it before we lost another shot. Breathing hard, we arrived at the ticketing window. The agent put us on a plane leaving shortly for – you guessed it! – California! (LAX, Los Angeles to be exact!)

So we grabbed up everybody again and started running back down toward a new departure gate. We had to be ready, when we got to LAX, to run with all our might to catch the flight, which was supposed to take off about 15 minutes after we landed from Las Vegas. So that’s what happened. We exploded out of that plane, me holding one kid, Janis another and also John’s hand. Then we started our sprint! I think on camera our family might have merely been a passing blur, we were running so fast. One Hare Krishna guy in full costume tried to stop me for a donation. I doubt he did that again to anyone else that day! He may still remember me!

Finally, we boarded the plane, took off, made one stop in Dallas, and at last touched down in Atlanta, where my mother was waiting to take us home. “I’ll be home for Christmas, you can count, on me.” (We always were suckers for Bing Crosby!)

I’m going to stop the narrative now, even though there is more to the story. Maybe one day we can come back to it, and like Paul Harvey used to say, we can have “the rest of the story.”

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For now, however, I want to get to the point regarding why I told this story. For the past few days, “the will of God” has been germinating in my mind, and I knew I was going to write something soon. It always has to percolate a little bit until it is ready for expression. I had it in mind to write a general piece on the “will of God,” to share some things I’ve been recently seeing regarding the issue.

When I first began to type up this article, a few days ago, the original title was “The Will of God.” And I started it with the quote from Mark 3 above. That was as far as I took it for a couple of days. Then yesterday, when I sat down at that open page titled “The Will of God,” the word ‘mysterious’ came into mind, and so I stuck that word into the title, making it “The Mysterious Will of God.” I was going to use that as a play on words, because God’s “will” is not really that mysterious at all.

Then the trite cliché that almost everyone says at one time or another, believers and non-believers alike, “God works in mysterious ways,” came into my mind. So I started typing, realizing the story and the subject had changed, and the flow was now headed in a new direction and my brain and fingers had to go along with it. Out popped Prov 3: 5,6, and we were off and running on our story from 1977.

Why are we headed in this direction now, Lord? I can’t see what this story has to do with what You have been showing me.” (This happens a lot!) And then I saw it. This is EXACTLY God’s demonstration of Himself and His “will!”

I think this subject is very little understood in Christendom in general. I’m not sure what I would hear from people if I asked them to describe the “will of God” as it relates to their lives. I think probably a good many, if not most, would say, that there were all kinds of things in their lives that are “not” the will of God, things about ourselves that we think God is displeased with, etc., and we have to go through a time of purging to one by one remove those obstacles and idiosyncrasies from us. It is doubtful we could ever complete the project while in this life, but if we did, THEN we could say we live according to the will of God. So for them, the “will of God” would be to remove all the “not God’s will” stuff from our lives. Good luck! Even trying to make a determination of which is God’s will, and which is not, wrings us out.

Will,” in these cases, touches every level. Most people associate “will” with action, activity, a decision about what to do, where to go, Who will be our God, etc. Will, in that context is just another word for “choice.”

But “will” is even more than that, both in God and in us. In another sense, will is more like a “mindset,” an immovable determination, that this is where I stand and this is who I am. Sort of a continuously chosen “choice.” The reason I can include this in “will,” is because this fixed determination we have come to, this mindset, we had to come to it through a choice between alternatives in it.

I am speaking here on the deepest level, involving the integrity of our whole being, not whether we’ll have chicken or beef for dinner tonight. At our deepest level, we decide whether we want to be love, light and blessing; or, we can say “To hell with that,” and fix ourselves into self-loving selves, out to get whatever we can. Every one in the world is continuously confronted with this inner determination, whether they know it or not. That is one of the reasons why Jesus could say, “He that doeth truth cometh to the light, that his deeds may be made manifest, that they are wrought in God.” (John 3:21)

Someone might ask, how could people who are not of the faith of Christ, be included in that? How can anyone “do” truth, and not be speaking from the Spirit of Truth?

Precisely!

And it is in this inner determination, in what NPG used to call, “fixed inner consciousness,” that our path is decided. We decide which kind of person we want to be, other-lover or self-lover, and everything in life opens up to us in whichever direction we go. If we decide we want to be a self-lover, life will open up to us along those lines and provide us with everything we need to be that self-lover. If conversely, we decide we want to be that other kind of person, an “other-lover,” then the same thing happens. Everything in life begins to open up and connect with that.

Now, if any reader has stuck with me this long, maybe it’s good the crowd has thinned out, because I am about to say a very disagreeable thing, according to some folks. The “disagreeable thing” is this: Both sides of that coin above, deciding to become an other-lover, or not making that decision and by default stay in the darkness of our own self-loathing and self-judgment, ARE ALL THE WILL OF GOD!

How can I say that? For two simple reasons. First, Paul wrote in Eph 1:11, that He works all things according to the counsel of His own will. I really believe that phrase, “all things.” How many things? ALL things!

And secondly, God gives us the answer Himself, regarding His Being, His Love, and His Freedom. I quote it all the time: With the pure thou wilt show thyself pure; and with the froward thou wilt show thyself froward.” (Ps 18:26; 2 Sam 22:7; Titus 1:15).

While we are not independent, there is still a “place” in us that is, in a sense, “ours” alone. It is right here in this issue – which kind of person do I want to be? Everything from then on out is a result of that inner momentous transaction, and likewise we are “God’s will” expressed, in that choice, be it darkness or light. (How could God’s will be expressed in darkness? Read on!)

Let’s look again at that passage, first – “With the pure thou wilt show thyself pure.” This is saying the exact same thing as Jesus’ word on the “single eye.” “If thine eye be single, then thy whole body shall be full of light.” This is the “eye” as Jesus described it, that sees only one thing – God! Over, under, beneath, above, in and through ALL! No matter what else may appear on the landscape, be it war, famine, pestilence, destroyed lives, selfish behavior – whatever it is – we see only God, because there is no other Power, no other Mind, no other Heart, ACTIVE in the universe, working all things after the counsel of His own Will, which is Love, or in William Law’s terms: “the eternal will to all goodness.” The disturbances in the foreground, some of which we are intimately involved with and some not, cannot blind us to the God Who works every bit of it, down to the smallest most minute detail, for the glory of the Redeemed! Nothing excepted!

Understand this – Satan does not run himself, which is why we need not quake in front of him! He is not free to wreak havoc wherever and whenever he wants to. He may be self-deluded that he is in charge, but he is not. If in ANY SENSE, Satan has a “power” that the Lord God cannot thwart, swallow up, or transmute into righteousness, then Romans 8:28 falls to the ground as an ultimate sham, because God is promising something He apparently cannot deliver, if Satan is actually an “independent self,” doing his own thing in contradiction to God’s love.

And with the froward thou wilt show thyself froward.” This is the other side of the coin. In that inner determination to be for ourselves, whether by default or deliberate choice (and some do deliberately make that choice), we can then only see what we are and know, which is frowardness. It is perverseness, rebellion, scoffing, mocking, haughtiness. It is seeing other people just as “objects” to be manipulated and bound in our service. When “with the pure thou wilt show thyself pure” overtakes us, everywhere we look we see the glory and purity of God. Conversely, when we walk in willful frowardness, we see hell everywhere, because that is what we are. We see and transmit outwardly whatever we are, not necessarily what our words say. If we are heaven within, that is what will come out of us. Likewise, if we are hell within, that also is what will come out of us. The difference is, heaven will edify and make you you, your true self. Hell, on the other hand, only seeks to gobble us up, and as the Holy Spirit brings Christ in us to shine like the Son in benevolence and blessing, if we are darkness within, the false spirit only seeks who it may trap and devour by us, like a black hole in space, that scientists say have such a strong inward gravitational pull, they trap Light! Light enters in, but never comes back out.

The same theme is picked up in Revelation 22: 11,12 –

He that is unjust, let him be unjust still: and he which is filthy, let him be filthy still: and he that is righteous, let him be righteous still: and he that is holy, let him be holy still. And, behold, I come quickly; and my reward is with me, to give every man according as his work shall be.”

Here is the point – people are really confused about this, and have built fantastical doctrines to reflect their confusion. Free will, predetermination, whether separation is eternal or “age” lasting, etc., everyone of those questions kind of dovetail down into this issue.

This is “how” everything is worked according to the counsel of His own will. We say this because we want to be very clear and understood if possible. Everything there is, “lives and moves and has its being in God.” Paul told that to the “unredeemed” Athenians in Acts 17. There is no other “locale” in the universe, except the existence of God, Who is All in all, and being that “ALL,” He cannot be perceived by that which is only a “part.”

But the point is, we live in the “be-ing” (substance, reality, existence) of God, simply because there is no other “place” to be! We know Him either in Love or in Wrath. “Wrath” is not something He does to punish us, nor is it some divine emotion God “feels” about us. It is even less a fixed destiny, but if we do not know the Son, Whose Light and Love bring us into the same, then we can only see wrath. John says this in plain words: “He that believeth on the Son hath everlasting life: and he that believeth not the Son shall not see life; but the wrath of God abideth on him.”(Jn 3:36).

Let us understand this. This “wrath” we are speaking of, is not the “uncontrollable rage” of God, boiling mad at us and the world for a million-gazillion sins, and hot to bring us destruction because of it. There is no wrath in God. God Himself says that He does not see evil. John says that in God there is no darkness at all (even though John also says “the light shines in the darkness, and the darkness comprehended it not”).

And yet, wrath is prevalent! What we must come to understand in all this, is that what “wrath” there is, is not in God, in His “God is Love” nature. It is “in” God, in the sense that creatures out of fellowship with Him can only know wrath in themselves, because they have cut themselves off from the only thing that cools the fires of self-loving self – subservience to the Lion of the Tribe of Judah. Also, whatever a creature “knows” or “experiences,” God also “knows and experiences” it in and even AS that person as well, because He is always closer to us than our next breath.

God’s purpose has never been about wrath and punishment. Those are the devil’s tools. It has from the beginning been a road that in the fullness of time eventually leads to that for which the whole creation has been in earnest travail since the first day of creation: the manifestation of the Sons of God! God is not busying Himself with worries about our foibles and lack of understanding, always ashamed of His children who continuously do such a lousy job. God Himself came, in the Son, to still the wrath in us, and to restore us to complete and full fellowship, through Jesus Christ. Everything in the temporal created universe is geared toward that one end. And it is all love, anything and everything, even the darkest evil which remains “evil,” because God uses the negative energy of “evil” to bring forth those very sons for whom the whole creation is groaning daily with pains of labor.

And make no mistake about it, God certainly uses that “wrath” card if necessary. There are no rules in love, and no right or wrong way to do things. Love uses any and everything to accomplish its goal, which is to reproduce that same love in the “other.” Luther took holy orders because of the terror he felt in a thunderstorm, afraid it was the wrath of God and he feared he would be dragged into hell. So he became a monk through fear. People are always trying to “put God in a box” according to how they think He should act. “God would never use fear or anything negative toward us, because He is love,” they say. I guess they want people to come to Christ for the right reasons. I don’t care why they come or what gets them there, and neither does the Father. Love uses whatever it has available to press its claims. Even people’s misunderstandings and fears, even wrong teaching. Even sin, if necessary! There is no place Love will not go to rescue her beloved. Love sits with you while you vomit, and will not leave.

As I said above, the “will of God” is really not some elusive mumbo-jumbo, that we have to genuflect or crawl on broken glass to understand. The “will of God” is just what happens in our lives, and in the lives of everyone else, each and every day.

It is not some static pre-thought-out plan, sitting in a filing cabinet in heaven, that I must adhere to in each successive step every day. Nor is it something written in a book, “Fred will go to west Rome today,” that if I don’t do, I will have somehow missed the boat and the will of God.

The “will of God” is simply that by which we function and find perfect direction, consciously or unconsciously, every single day. We do not “find” the will of God for our lives and then try to live it out. Instead, we are Spirit people, Holy Spirit people, and the life we are living IS the will of God. We may not know what’s coming up tomorrow, or even in the next five minutes. But we DO KNOW that God performs His promises, and that He is doing that very thing in us!

End Part One

9 thoughts on “The Mysterious Will of God

  1. Whenever my wife or I tell someone that whatever happened or will happen in their lives is in fact the will of God, we get incredulous looks and “I don’t think so” responses. Most all will affirm the sovereignty of God, but not THAT sovereign. Looking forward to part 2. Ed.

  2. Just came across your emails recently after reading D Stones book The rest of the Gospel. Have been so encouraged by your emails and insights into this wonderful truth of union. Thank you for such a thoughtful and considered explanation on this subject the will of God. Most of my life I have been trying to crack this nut and still don’t have a lot of clarity. Can you help me to square what you have shared here with the Lord’s Prayer, where we are told to pray that His will be done on earth in the same way as it is in heaven? If, as you say His will is done almost automatically, why pray? Same goes for the Sermon on the Mount, we are told to “seek” the kingdom above all else, but if the will of God is going to prevail anyway, why bother? Have I misunderstood what you are saying? I suppose, the bottom line question is do we influencing outcomes when pray?

    Would really appreciate your thoughts,

    Regards,

    Tom

    • Hi Tom, sorry for the delay. I think the holidays are behind us now for a while. I think your questions make a good start for my next “will of God” piece which I promised, Part 2! Those are very valid questions and I believe when you see how all this works together you will understand your own questions. So, if you’ll give me another time period (not too long hopefully) I would like to tackle what you have asked. Be back with you soon!
      Blessings,
      fred

  3. Thank you Fred, hope you had a great holiday and look forward to part two when ever you can get round to it. All of this has been such a blessing,
    Many thanks,
    Tom

  4. Thank you Fred, hope you glad a great holiday and look forward to part two with interest.
    All of this has been such a blessing.
    Many thanks,
    Tom

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